Such as my poems. Currently I have writer's block and I'm trying to find something to write about. You can expect some within the next week since so much has happened and I've found out so much too.

I also would like to tell about my favorites. You know, like my favorite food, favorite band, etc.

Along with that I would like to tell about my political opinions and ordinary everyday questions. You know, stuff that you're just thinking about during the day and want an answer.

Dreams. 'Nuff said.

AHHH! STUPID SITEMAKER THING!! IT DIDN'T SAVE MY CHANGES!! AND I HAVE A HEADACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID, CRUEL WORLD!! 

Alrighty, I'm gonna put my dreams here.

Dunno when I had this one but I did somewhere along the lines of this week;

Aaron walks up to my door and rings the doorbell. Me, not knowing who it is (HONEST!) goes to answer the door. I see his face and slam the door. I run back up to my room and start blasting my music, I need to get him off my mind ASAP. But, my mom goes to answer the door. I don't know this, beings I'm up in my room. So my mom answers the door and sees it's him. Now, she's seen pictures of Aaron and knows that I love him. So then SHE slams the door in his face. (GO MOM!) Then my dad comes to investigate all the slamming of the doors and opens the door. He lets Aaron in and starts chatting with him. Soon I get in the shower and think that Aaron's gone. So I walk down the stairs in just a towel to get a glass of water. Aaron's sitting right there on the couch in MY house! Not to mention he's just seen me in a towel! So my dad yells; "Danelle, go upstairs, put some clothes on, come back down, and welcome our guest. He's having dinner with us." So I'm sitting here like; 'Great' and I'm sure if my mom heard that she'd say the same thing. So, after I glare at Aaron, I go back upstairs and get dressed. I pass the news onto my mom and she goes into her room and closes the door. I think I heard some Spanish swear words too. (my momma is half Hispanic, therefore, me, being her offspring, am a fourth HA!) Anyway, I'm dressed and dinner is ready. I sit there, slumped in my chair, while Aaron is right there across the table from me, digging into his mexican hamburger. Disgusted, I look away. I don't eat anything and end up giving my hamburger to my dad. Then I scoot out of my chair and up to my room. My dad doesn't say anything but I know what he's got in mind. A movie. Perrrrrrrrrfect. I slam my door with a poster on it that reads 'Absence makes the heart grow fonder, so leave!' With a girl reading and crows in top hats and suits around her. Then I woke up. I'll tell you guys more later. I dreamt on about it, but right now my parents are bugging me to go watch 'Mona Lisa Smile'. yay.

Okay, this dream has a little bit of a different ending.

I see Aaron getting into his parent's van and sneak into the backseat. It turns out one of his relatives lives near my Gramma. [Yes, I call her 'Gramma', woo, LOVE that lady, so cool!] Anyway, like I was saying, one of his relatives lives near my Gramma. So we're going there. And somehow, Kendra ends up with me in the backseat. So we're sitting there and Aaron's mom asks him to find something in the DUM DUM DUM, BACKSEAT! So he looks back there and sees Kendra and I. He's actually happy to see me! ( ;-D) So we end up moving in the seat he's sitting in and Kendra just kinda disappears. So we go by a middle school, and Aaron's mom goes; 'You should be there.' To me. Then we pass Aaron's school. I look back at him from the window. He's looking at me and I look back. His eyes are the most beautiful blue I've ever seen them. Then we get to my Grandma's house and it turns out his relative is his Grandpa, AND he lives right across the street from my Gramma. So then Aaron picks me up and takes me up to his Grandpa's house. Somehow, don't KNOW how, but I'm in this really pretty dress. It's really pretty, like something one might wear to the prom. Here's a link to what it looks like. I saw it at Hot Topic. [Okay, it's not showing up, so I made a cool outfit. Email me if you want to see it. Make sure you put ''YOUR SITE'' on the subject, otherwise I'll delete it.] Okay, so I'm in a grey skirt, with a red shirt and these cool shoes. So I'm in that outfit and he picks me up and carries me to his Grandpa's house. It's a really nice house. [Just so you guys know, it's in Evergreen, Colorado and takes about an hour to get there from my house.] So he carries me up there and introduces me and then we go over to my Gramma's house and I introduce him to her, and she really likes him. So we're sitting there and she asks him what school he goes to, and he tells her. So then she says; ''Well, Danelle, you should go there too! I hear it's very nice there! And I'm in high school, so she goes and gets the papers, fills them out, and sends them off. 

And that's as far as I've gotten. There's another one where Ranger moves into Max Coates' old house, and that house is RIGHT NEXT to Aaron's house. So kind of a spooky concept. It freaked me out too. And I remember from my dream i was talking to Kendra and I said; "BOTH OF MY CRUSHES LIVE IN THE SAME NEIGHBORHOOD! AND AS IF MY LIFE WASN'T CRAZY ENOUGH, THEY LIVE RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHER!" It was funny. Not really if that would happen, KINDA cool, but NOT good if it actually happened. I have mixed feelings on that scenario. That would be a lot of madness too. The whole 'Ranger living there' thing is my subconcious going a little outta' wack cuz he's moving @ the end of the month. Well, I'm hungry, breakfast is ready, and I don't have any more dreams to write about, none that come to mind at least.

Sweet dreams,

-Danelle xxxxx          

Okay, I had this funktified dream that Ranger and I were going to kiss each other, but we could never get to the same place and once we did, I woke up. I had to go through someone's bedroom, and through this one tunnel to get to him, and when I got to the end I had to kick it open, and then I couldn't so I had to go back, and finally when he had me in his arms, and he was lowering his beautiful face to mine......I woke up. Yes, it sucks, but hey, what'cha gonna do?

Okay, I had this WEIIIIIIIIIRD dream that Aaron came over to my house, and he was sitting in my room, on my bed, and everything from the ceiling i'd used to decorate with was on the bed and he was looking at it. Then he told me that he wanted to quit smoking and said something else about his girlfriend and friends. Then I took his face into my hands, looked deep into his eyes and told him that if he wanted to stop smoking, that was HIS descision, and he shouldn't worry about what his girlfriend or friends. Then Kendra called me downstairs *still in the dream* and when i got back to my room, Aaron was gone. Yup, pretty weird dream, but that was like, a month ago.

Ooh yeah, poems!!

I found that one, but I wrote this one;

I can't believe this all happened so fast,

I can't believe we're finally together,

I can't believe we've held each other,

I can't believe I heard those words,

You're the sweetest person I've ever known.

I can't wait to see you grown.

You hold my heart close to yours,

As I hold yours to mine,

I can't wait to feel your lips-

Oh wait,

I can.

-For Ranger, LUV YA!

^^^ugh, spare me.......

Hate fills me,

Looking around,

Thinking about going to a walk,

Pondering it at least,

But visiting all those memories again and again,

Is tiring.

I grow so weary from it,

I don't want to see,

Or remember all those places,

In all those places,

Good memory or bad,

I don't care,

I don't want to remember anymore,

I hate everything about this place,

I've been going insane trying to make sense of it all,

And I come out with nothing,

But frustration and anger,

Hating everything,

Being moody for the next 24 hours,

Not wanting to do anything,

To just sit and think,

That or sleep.

I'll be back soon,

Don't worry.

I'm not going anywhere.

6:48

Some people on my Buddy List are annoying (random, I know but don't care.)

Greenday and Sublime ROCK!

You are wasting part of your short life reading all this.

I am on another one of my ''mindless rants'' taking that from Danielle

Aaron is a jerk and I need to forget about him/let him go already.

All that being said and done, I think I'm done for today.......

AND TODAY IS TOMMORROW!! now I have more to complain about. Danielle and Erika are kinda making me mad, but just kinda. I've been spending more time with Kendra and I'm going out for soccer :) The practices start @ 7:00 in the morning. SEVEN!!! I am NOT  a morning person! Oh well, life sucks, got to deal with it. The date today is 3/17/04. We have our stupid CSAP social tommorrow and half of me just wants to go home when it's happening. Maybe I will, but I also doubt it very highly.

I haven't seen Aaron since Monday. Makes me kinda sad and kinda happy. I'm half and half like that..... It makes me happy cuz then I don't have to act like I'm having a good time without him. And then it makes me sad cuz I think I love him. Erika keeps saying we have to go out for six years before I can say I love him. Really pissed me off, but oh well! Poo, I can't stop thinking about him either.

I had this wicked dream last night. Aaron was in it and you know how people's arms look when they do heroin cuz of the needle?? It was really exaggerated, I think my mind went a little wacko and made it look like he'd cut himself. But anyway, I dreamt that he came over to my old house and we were sitting and talking and I saw his arms and freaked out! I mean, wouldn't you?? But anyway, we were talking and he ended up staying there for weeks at a time. He's really cool and I love him to death but I wish he wouldn't do all the crap he's doing........

And then there's Ranger who's not talking to me!! GRR! I thought he was sensetive and just needed time but that crap is done and over with now. I have moved on and made my ''love life'' even more complicated by liking Aaron now. Oh well, I guess I'll get over it eventually........

Until more of my life comes crashing down into oblivion, I'll see you soon!

ANOTHER DAY AND MORE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT! The date is 3/21/04.

1. I can't stop thinking about Aaron. (that's always there, kinda goes without saying.)

2. I saw Aaron 6 times yesterday. SIX TIMES! Asswhole......

3. I have nothing else to complain about! OH yeah i do......

*sucks in a mouthful of air*  Kendra has gone snowboarding and I'm all alone with my thoughts. My friend is being a jerk and will not stop at all costs. All my friends are annoying me accept for Kendra. Aaron laughed at me. I'm sunburned. I'm fucking cold right now. I have my 'monthly bill' to deal with. Aaron can drive and that's not fair. I need new clothes but we're poor. Not really, there's people worse-off than I am. I'm heartbroken and I hate it. I love Aaron and I hate it. I HATE THE WHOLE GODDAM FUCKING WORLD RIGHT NOW! Sorry, getting a little homicidal there..... Anyway, if there's something else to complain about, I can't think of it..... Until later, follks. Oh yeah, we're on spring break and I have nothing to do. 

10:32 AM Sunday, March 28, 2004. The 14th year of my existance. Not my birthday if that 's what you're thinking.

 I'm dying on the inside right now. Aaron's dying and I am too. woo, typing with out looking @ the keyboard is fun. See? I have nothing better to do than look forward to Kendra coming and getting me, and being on th ecomputer. Can't really be excited about going to school, I wanna ditch one of these days. Oh yeah, that and go to a high school party. Don't ask why, I just want to. Not because of the guys, no, but just to forget my problems and have a good time.....

Now I shall answer some of my own questions;

Q; Why can't I drive?

A: Because you don't have a liscence or a car.

Q; Why doesn't Aaron love me?

 A: Maybe he does, he just hasn't told you yet. heh, yeah right, he has a g/f.

Q: Why does Ranger keep looking at me?

A: Pssh, like I know, he's a GUY, I'm not supposed to know. Figure it out, biotch!

Q: Why did Morgan *HAVE* to be tempted to open my A.F.I. CD?? Grr, it was supposed to be MY birthday present!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I'm so pissed right now.

A:Because anymore she's being selfish and not a good friend.

Okay, for now I'm done. Maybe I should just start calling this the ''complain page'' cuz that's pretty much all I do on this page. Heh. later ppl.  

more questions with my own answers

Why am I here?

Because your mom got pregnant and had you.

Why do I want to cry?

You miss Kendra, you wish you had someone to talk to, and you're listening to a sad CD

Jade's hot

That's not a question.

Why was Ranger at school today?

He was probably visiting his old freinds.

Ha ha, I called him a fuck-head.

That's not cool

I know, I told him I was just kidding.

You always say that when you don't want people to know that's what you really think of them.

NO I DON'T!

Alright, I have 2 stop, I'm like, arguing with myself right now....